In just a few days I’ve created two Brodern tracks. The first, Broder från en annan moder (brother from another mother), was created 1^st January and was released January 3^rd. (I wanted to test the fast track release function from my distributer Amuse.)

Second track I created 8^th January and have finished today, 10^th and if all goes well, it will be released on Valentine’s day, 14^th of February. It is called “Jag är så lycklig” (I am so happy).

In both cases, I feel such joy when the track is done. I listen to it on repeat over and over again. Often it’s like – ok, just one more time – when I’ve reached the end of the track. I imagine I am not the only music creator that does this, but even if I am, I really enjoy it! It gives me such a boost of energy and spark immense joy. Yes, I’ve almost always been like this, since I started creating music. In fact, I am so proud of me and this behaviour that I named a Muddhedd track after it, on the EP 100, track number 4!

This is something I do a few days after completing each track, than normally, I do not listen to it anymore until it is released again. Then I will revisit it and listen to each release intensely for a while. So normally, the first few counters on how many times a track has been streamed is usually me. 😊

To me, it has been a journey to be able to be proud of myself and enjoy what I’ve created. Historically when I listened to my creations, I was overly critical and would make long lists of things that I’ve could have done better and criticised myself and my creation. While there was positive things to get out of that behaviour (identifying things that I can do better, and make it better next time) it was more destructive than constructive and took a big toll on me with each created track.

And now the pendulum has swung all over to the other side,  perhaps a little to far, but I much prefer this approach to the other behaviour. And like many things that I’ve learned through my music-making, this has also rubbed off to other areas of my life and have improved my life significantly as my general behaviour towards myself has changed for the better.

Alright guys, this is gonna be a long one. Just sayin’!

I started out, about 10 years old. I do not remember if I’d already started playing the piano or not by then, but I’ve listened to music since before I can remember.

At 10 (about) I had a neighbour who had an Atari, with a sampler, so he could record a drumloop, and then add voice over it. (I say voice, because I cannot really call it rap…)

My first stagename was born – DJ Joe. But that career was short lived. Only two “songs”, recorded on tape. I still have it somewhere. (No, I do not plan to release it.)

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I love creating music. It is rewarding. Not completing a track, but the journey and the experiance. Being able to explore and follow my curiousity.

Just like reading a book is an experiance that takes place while you read, and not in the completion of the task, having read the book, it is the same with music to me.

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